Not Me

You didn't pick me so I know I'm not one of your special friends
You didn't choose me so I know I'm not one to have your interests
Just Not Me

You don't talk to me so I know I'm not important to you
You don't give me any attention so I know you don't care about me
Its just Not Me

I never ever hear from you on your own volition, so you don't care to put any effort in
I never get anything from you on your own initiative, so you are thoughtless about me
Well at least for Not Me

I put in effort, and give attention, however the same is not reciprocated
I exercise your mind, however I'm left dissolute
Guess its Not Me

You have a choice, and it's Not Me!

Suicide: What's Left

You wonder what position you're going to fall in once you kill yourself
You thought about how your body will lay lifeless after you did the deed
Pounded how your body will be discovered
Question when someone will recover your torso

Suicide was committed, you have no say so in what's to be retrieved
Offing yourself, you can only put it in your letter how you want your body rescue to be done
Self- execution you performed, there are no predictors in how gruesome your body will be left
You killed yourself, unless you left instructions, you no longer have control what's to be done with you
Gave yourself the death penalty, you have no more rights or speech

But you wonder about what kind of posture your corpse is going to have
Thought about how your body parts will lay
Pounded on how the scene will be
Questioned when someone will come and take away your remains


just don't do it.. Don't commit suicide

Promise Me

The next time we get in touch with one another, can you please promise me that you will sex me like you have never sexed me before? Can you promise me that no matter how much i tell you to stop or slow down, that you'll take my body for the taking? Please can you promise me this? Please promise that you'll choke sex me hard and rough. Promise to back sex me until i can't walk. Promise to spit in my mouth and slap and punch me around. Promise to call me dirty names while you do me so fast and tough. Promise me that you'll make me crawl to you like a pet and kiss your feet. And can you please promise to tie me up, and handcuff me?? Can you promise to blindfold me, and gag me if you want to?? Can you promise to whip me with a chain and belt? Promise me that you'll slow it down and grind me at a slow tempo. Promise me that while you doing me with no haste, that you'll bite on my neck and kiss on my ears. Promise me you're going to make out with me while you slow sex me. Can you please promise me that while you decelerate, that you will play with me? Please can you promise me these things? The next time we get in touch with one another, can you please promise me that you'll breast sex me? Promise me that your mouth is going to bite, suck, and gnaw on my breasts and nipples.

 

When we get back in touch, first can you promise to embrace me with a hug and a kiss? Promise to talk to me, to catch up. Then, can you promise to start the foreplay? Please promise me that you're going to start slow by touching me all over my body. Promise that you can put me in the mood. Please promise that you're going to tease me to get me in the mood. And when the foreplay ends, can you promise me that you will be the one to take off my shirt. Promise me that you are going to be the one to pull down my pants. You know what comes next, promise me that you're going to unsnap and take off my bra. The best part, please promise me that you're going to pull down my panties and lay me on the bed.

 

Oh how I can't wait until we get back in touch... Because I know that you're going to keep these promises

He Likes It Quite

Does he ever expect me to speak?
Sitting in silence, I'm mute, never reaching a social peak
Quite to hear a pin drop, I never say a word
How he doesn't say anything to me is so absurd

He is so good at making women feel good about how bad he treats them. He's a professional at it
He is so good at having women chase after him regardless of his hurtful ways. He's great at it

What's wrong with him?
Can his heart really be that cold?
What's wrong with him?
Is he really the disrepectingly bold?

He doesn't expect me to speak
I sit in silence like he wants it, words from my mouth he needth not to seek
Better if I stay quite, he doesn't need me to speak not one word
His distasteful lack of attention is highly absurd

He like it quite afterwards, so you women better not make a sound
Sit there in silence for him, or he's not going to keep you around

Entangled

I'm being ripped apart from the insides out
I'm being turn to pieces from outside in
I'm being shattered from head to toe
I'm becoming undone from toe to head

Entangled in a web of depression, where is the release
Entangled in a web of stress, where is the peace
Entangled in a web of worry, can I ever escape this
Entangled in a web of  doubt, will I ever conquer this

I've lived in sorrow for most of my days
I've lived in pain for most of my life
My entire existence has been an unhealthy emotional maze
My entire being has been struggling to fight for most of my years; its been my whole life
 

What is there to See?

I look around in life and see everyone else happy,
But me
I look around in life and see everyone else smiling,
But me.
I feel tormented by the ghosts of my past
I feel neglected because of the absence and neglection by the emptiness of fitting in that continues to last

As I notice the lives of others, mine is sorely sad
As I observe the life of those around me, mine is undoubtedly numb
I feel trapped instead myself because of my past; The abuse has molded me bad
I feel a struggle trying to break free because of my abuse; My past I have to conquer

I look around in life and I can no longer afford to compare
I need a new lease on life
I look around in life and I have to become my own to no longer despair
No longer can I life in strife

So what is there to see?...

That I need to live my life differently

Addict of a Sexual High

As she lays on the floor words can't describe the ecstasy she's feeling
The high she gets is unlike anything she has experienced before
He is her drug. He is her sexual high. He is her addiction.

Lying on the floor, the sexual high consumes her
She cannot believe what she is feeling
The climax she experienced is not ending causing her to bask in a sense of a sexual high

Feeling like a drug addict, she feels the want to get a drug induced high
He has her hooked on his sex, she wants to try a drug to feel that high
Addicted to him, he gives her the sexual high of a long-lasting climax well after the sex being over

Lying on the floor, she can't help but to feel drugged by the power of his sex
This high she's going through causing her to cry not knowing the reason
Sexual highs she feels, makes her feel so unreal

As she lies on the floor, she tries to contain the high she's feeling off of him
The high she is continuing to feel, is making her fall further and further into her addiction to him
He is her high. He is the drug. He is her drug. His sex is her addiction. He is her sexual high

Pressure

Let me explain something to you about pressure
It can take you where you don't want to go
It can lead you to a life you don't want to live
And it can destroy you
Pressure
It can strip away your dignity
It can cause you to become servant to irreverence
Giving into pressure is a spiritual death sentence
Allowing pressure to make your choices pushes you onto an unwanted path

How can I push forward?
How can I stand up for what I no longer want to do?
How do I push toward bravery to say no to what I know is wrong?
How do I stand up to this pressure that's hanging over me?

Pressure
My experience with pressure
It can influence you to want to try bad things
It can cause you to fall into an addiction
And it can bring you down faster than what you realize
Pressure
It can take away your self-respect
It can cause you to become a doormat to a unsafe lifestyle
Falling into pressure is damaging to your body and soul
Giving into pressure allows you to make the choices you know that aren't right

Pressure
Relieve it
Relinquish it
Destroy it
Dissolve it