Strange Chemistry

To describe this young man seems like an impossible task for me to do
Words just can't explain the web of his charm that he has inadvertently pulled me in to
This young man captivates my mind in such a way that I can't comprehend
He's a sweet, nice, handsome guy that I thought I could potentially confide in
But I'm so damaged, I didn't even give it a chance
He knew something was up, even from the first glance
I feel responsible for this circle of games that I've put him through
All my silly doubts and fears, no wonder from me he withdrew
I understand Time was the main deal
It all started, but ended so quickly, it feels so surreal
By no means am I upset at him, he's done nothing wrong
It's me that continues to bring my baggage along
I hope that we would have been really good true friends, I was looking forward to that
However my past and ghosts are responsible for our mishap
I believed that being friends with this guy would had been so fun, exciting, and just something new
I believed that being friends with this young man would had been an eccentric yet so fairytale like and it just didn't fall through
We're so different, but at the same time, we're just alike
It feels a little weird that I can't describe it, but it's nothing about this that I dislike
Trust me, I wanted to experience everything in our friendship..
From trust, care, sex, to telling secrets, sharing our pasts, and cuddles, all plus more, in the friendship
Yes, I wanted to be exposed to all the things in life with him, a friendship so spectacular
I bet we could have came up with our own vernacular :)
Yes I wanted to kiss him I waned to experience his touch, and I wanted to caress him
At the same time, yes I wanted to be his friend, his hang out buddy, to just to be cool with him
We're good now, we understand each others situations, everything is clear
I had no bad intentions and that is absolutely sincere
But I guess its quite over now, nothing to come of this, of us
I have to stop drowning myself when things don't work out and that is a must!

If I had to descried him...

He's tall like the tallest tree in the forest
He's white like the whitest sand on the beach
He has the deepest blue eyes like the clearest blue ocean
He has a slim build with a sexiness to accompany his body
His voice is like the sound of angels singing
And his smile is as the beautiful rising of the sun
The hair on his head is like the blackness of a soft towel
His touch, oh my is his touch magical, sending a chill through my body
His sense or humor, the way he speaks, how he walks, the depth of his mind, and the mystery of his heart... Illuminating!!

Yes, YOU!