No Title to Describe the Love for Someone

I love this man with every part of my being
But I understand that he is not worth keeping
Almost ten years of knowing him
However, then again, I really didn't know him.
He never cared about me
I never mattered to him
He never was concerned for me
I never interest him
It was only out of convenience when he would give me attention
It was only when he wanted what he wanted he'd give me a mention
My heart still loves him a lot.
My mind still thinks of him a lot.
Asked the question would he care if I died
He said that would hurt him, to never talk like that, is what he replied
So he cared enough for me only when I would perish
Not even being there for me in the past or now, he couldn't even cherish
Stepping out on his relationship, he wanted me
Not being faithful to her, to get what he wanted from me
Mentioned to me after this encounter, we couldn't have sex anymore
Stated to me he couldn't cheat anymore
He has a girlfriend and I have to leave him alone
He has a girlfriend and I have to leave for good and be gone
It was claimed that we really are or were friends
But it was only when he wanted to do what he did to me that I became a friend
I love him so much, and this all so bad hurts
I care about him so much, but my acquaintance with him I must desert
All that time I told him how I felt about him,..for five years!
All this time he was never going to give me what I wanted, and he knew it, playing me, and this brings me to tears
Now, he's with someone, and I wouldn't dare to wait
He's with her now, hoping for something with us later, I can't await
It makes me think and wonder, what was wrong with me, why wasn't I good enough
Now having to pick up the broken pieces of my heart to move on and forget is going to be tough
I just want him back so bad, but he makes me feel like a bad person
I just want to be with him so bad, but I have to stop lingering in this or my pain is going to worsen
Building the courage to stay away even if he comes back
Burying my life in God so that if he should return my persistence in staying away won't lack
As I look to God, he is all I have, and can be the only one to heal my heart
I'm committing my ways to him, and leaving that guy alone, so I'm doing my part
I wonder if this man will ever realize how much I love, care, and feel about him
I wonder if this man will ever understand how much I would have been there for him, giving him everything, just to take care of him
He has been the only guy that I ever wanted to be with, I can't see myself with anyone else
It's overdo for me to let got now because someone out there is better, I deserve someone else
But, oh well, all is done and gone for now, all this must be lost
If he should ever come to me again, I'm going to have to ignore, for me, his accost
I want to say I'm sorry, I always want to apologize
However, I'm not the one who should be saying it, my love for him he refused to recognized..