Crying Out to God

God, I feel like I'm trapped inside of a box with no way out I turn to the right, to the left, try to go forward and; backward, but I can never break out

I'm so stuck in my mind and ways, I need you to change my heart
I'm trapped inside of this mess and I need you to give me a brand new start

Father God, I'm so sorry that I'm failing you and that my heart is so weak
I'm sorry I'm not growing and that all of what I see for me is bleak...

I'm ashamed now of how I turned out, I never thought my life would be like this
I always thought I'd be the person you wanted, living in holy spiritual bliss

I'm so tired of crying myself to sleep at night
I just want to be happy, I just want to be alright

None of this even seems real to me, it feels so surreal
I'm out of touch with heaven's reality, I'm not even sure anymore of how I feel

I'm so numb, I don't even recognize why I hurt anymore
I'm so numb, I don't even recognize what I'm in anymore

Please God, please save me and rescue me
Please make haste to help me, so I can feel and see your glory

20 years of chaos and pain - 20 years of tears and no gain
Time is up, but before you come, please give me joy again
Time is running out, but before eternity is here, please return hope unto me again