The Inside

Dark clouds draw near again
Anguish is taking over again
Has no one told you about my sorrows?
I went in the bathroom to end it, to not to see tomorrow
Drowning in unreachable pain
Continuing falling in severe pain
Has no one shown you my disdaining attitude?
Spiraling down without a stop into a dangerous downward latitude
Into the bottomless of a black pit mournfully subduedToo many years where aberrant life ruled

No room to let the light shine in
The only thing I see is black coming in
Has no one admitted they shared the same presence?
Tears, agony, and suffering never ceased, it was always in the present
Fear of death that I wanted to do to myself, but couldn’t stand to cause self harm
I quit before those thoughts fully developed. I stopped because of my life alarm
Abandoned, always by myself being all alone
With the walls is where my spirit roamed
Being tied to a leash, at anytime ready to break
Broke loose to decide, my life and soul, he would not take.

Take an ACTION STEP

My action step involves the importance of donating blood. This issue is particularly important to me because there is a huge shortage of blood here in southeastern Michigan. Approximately 900 blood donations are needed each day (in southeast Michigan alone), and approximately 39,000 pints of blood is needed each day in America! Every two seconds is the time that passes before someone in America needs blood. (About 1 in 7 people going into a hospital needs blood). About 4.5 million patients need blood transfusions each year in the U.S (and Canada), but only 38% of the U.S population is eligible to donate. Donating blood saves lives.

Just by giving blood (1 unit = 1 pint), you could save three lives! And by donating six times a year (most you can donate in a year), you can save 24 people! If all blood donors gave three times a year, blood shortages would be extremely rare, and if one more percent of everyone in the U.S would donate, blood shortages will not happen. The demand for blood increase’s during holidays and the summer months, because during these times traveling is greater, leading to even greater risks of accidents. And maybe you are someone who wants to cut down on their calories and is losing weight, well, while donating blood you burn about 650 calories! You’re just not benefitting someone else live, but also yours.

I say blood donating is important to me because I have a little nephew that was born prematurely. He needed amount two pints of blood to stay alive, so I donated a pint and my brother donated a pint. We saved his live. There are many ways to use the blood that’s being donated. The donations are used to help patients in need. It can help accidents victims (which they might need anywhere from 4- 100 units of blood), a kidney transplant (2 units), premature baby (1-4 units), liver transplant (10 units), cancer treatment (2-6 units), heart transplant (4-6 units), sickle cell disease (10-15 units), open heart surgery (2-6 units), and leukemia (2-6 units). All of these (which are the most common patient needs), and more, needs frequent blood donations. People die when they lose a lot of blood when there is not enough blood to be transferred to them. It is important to donate. Save a life! It’s not a hard thing to do.

Donating blood is as simple as riding a bike! Any person of the age of 17 (and older), and weighs at least 110 pounds can donate blood. Every 56 days (every two months) you can donate. All you have to do is call 1-800-GIVE-LIFE and sign up. The process is easy. Once you have registered, you go to the donation site that has been given to you, sign in and get started. First, you would see a nurse and she would ask you questions about your health. Second, the nurse would take your temperature, your pressure, and then test your Iron (at which she would poke your finger, take the blood, and then put it in a testing machine). The test measures the amount of red blood cells in your body that carry oxygen. (This is called the Hematocrit test). Your Iron must be at least a 38% (12.5 and up) to donate blood. If able to donate, the real process begins. A tube (which is connected to a pint bag and four separate tubes) is put in your vein, and the blood will flow from your arm, into the bag and tubes. (The small little test tubes are for testing your blood for any diseases or abnormalities. So if you were affected with Hepatitis, HIV or AIDS, the center will contact you and stop the delivery of your blood immediately) After this is complete, you are then immediately given a snack (this is so that you won’t become dizzy, dehydrated, or light headed after donating). This whole process takes about 45 minutes to an hour.

When I donated blood, I felt great because I saved three people lives (off of just one donation)!! I will donate blood for the rest of my life because it makes me feel good that I’m making a difference in someone’s life. It makes me feel like a hero because in one year I can save 24 people. What I learned from donating blood, is that no matter how little something seem might seem to you, it just might have a huge impact on some else’s live. I strongly suggest that people donate blood because it is a truly warm-hearted, happy feeling experience. If you had a loved one that needed blood, wouldn’t you donate for them? So why not donate for a number of people that would feel just as appreciative as your loved one would be?

Galore of Interjection

Shadows of dark my reflections follow me

She's the only one that knows me

Jet black two-sided glass mirror that shows my unilluminated spirit

She's the only one that beholds my being

Drowning from lungs filled with tears

Sufficating from cloudy airways through the body

Thinking about going in for the kill, its self-murder

(And there is no love but only one love, and that's her only own one love)

Hearing the sound so vividly in my ears, my heart beats slower and slower by the second, as I hear it fading away; until I hear it no more.......

But Im still alive, Im not dead, Im still breathing. Im Still Alive, Im Not Dead, Im Still Breathing. IM STILL ALIVE, IM NOT DEAD, IM STILL BREATHING.

Feeling the thumps in my ears, my heart beats faster and faster by the minute, as I hear it getting stronger; until it knocks me down.......

But I raised......

I have been activated

Sad but no longer depressed from past years of former feelings Ive supressed

There's no cover-up in clothing to hide the pain in that I am dressed

At times there's an overcoming wind in which I become distressed

Its the pain that Ive been drowning in since age 7 I think that knows me best

Eyes on fire from the burning wet rocks of tears that causemy eyesto turn red

Theres a 10+ count fall for each tear that falls onto my "place of sorrow" bed

Could you ever understand whats meant from all these words Ive ever said?

Help me! Help me! I cried out over and over, to get over and rid of it all, to HIM Ive plead

Every time I get ready to swim, the dam breaks

From heart break, to slicing, from every contribution and ill incentive, i have yet to gatherinside collectable hate

This makes me think that Im a good person, but the worst things happen to me

None of it has taken away my love and eagerness to help but good vs. evil is a constant battle that Ive been fighting repeatedly

There Is No Description

Her thoughts haunt her at night to the point where she cries
She tries to put the images for her broken life out her mind; she no longer wants to think to die
Perhaps she needs to stop comparing herself to others, and she must stop weighing her live against theirs
She never feels lonely, but she’s always alone, never lonely, so how could this be??
Maybe it’s the battling with herself, being two people, one striving to survive, she can see.
She asks the question every day, “what’s wrong with me?’ She feels as if she doesn’t belong
With all this battling shes been fighting for months, she still haven’t killed herself, she’s still standing strong.
She hates the presence of each and every day, basking in the mist of longing for (a) life
She know she must not hate herself, she knows that will get her nowhere, she has to let her strong side always arrive
She refuses to face herself at times because she doesn’t want to see, become, and believe how much of a mess her life is
She longs to be done with this, to be in the future of good, to see what the truth about her is
But she is taking it day-by-day, trying to survive and outlive the way she always feel
She must stay strong, endure, and overcome all of this one day cuz she knows she has fighting will.

Leave Him As A Memory

She gave him her soul
She gave him her heart
She gave him her body
She gave him her life


With every desire, want, and need he could ever hunger, thrist, and long for, she supplied to him, ALL
He never had to ask, imply or hint, she knew exactly all of what he wanted to possess
He told her from day one everything that would be ask of her to make him happy, and she did it ALL

He builds her up only to break her down.


But she really never gave him anything at all
He stole it, he took it.
Ha led her to believe it was real
He led her to believe it will last
He led her to believe they were meant to be
He led her believe they would be together forever and always

Her soul is damaged
Her heart is broke
He body is shattered
Her life is a mess

She’s going to cry tonight, and she’s going to die inside tonight.

There is no comfort in the truth for her.
There is no comfort in the truth of how he really felt, pain is all she found.
She was the lie, for him, so he could hide all his insecurities.

He dragged her love around, now she must pick up the pieces.
Now, she must move on and leave it to time to heal

But she must not lose herself
She must not lose who and what she is
She must not lose what made her give her all in the first place
But she must loose those feelings, thoughts, and hopes she once had of him and any future of them being together.

No Leprechauns, No Pirates, No Explorers

I wasnt looking for you, but i found a great friend
This is something good that happened that i didnt attend.

I didnt have to cross rivers, climb mountains, or travel from coast to coast
Who would of known someone like you would have been so close.

I didnt use a treasure map to nagivate my to you
This is just a very pleasant surprise i fell into.

I didnt have to swim through oceans, fall out of the sky, or jump over the Grand Canyon,
Who would have known you and i would make such good social companions.

I wasnt searching for you, and i didnt expect a freindship to form
I didnt know what i was hoping for, but my hidden feelings for you in this friendship wont be a cause for reform.

I wasnt carrying an Atlas detailing who you were and where you'd be
It was everything I didnt know about you, that drawn me to J.M.Z

I didnt have to crawl through tunnels, hop from planes to trains, or run a distance of 42.195 kilometers to meet you any given day,
Who would have known you'd answer to me cuz i thought you were going to blow me away.

I wasnt spinning a globe to stop it to pinpoint you,
with the passing of time it takes things to be true.
There is not a point from A to B and where the X marks the spot,
(but sometimes there's a quest for friendship), and it can go without saying that i care about you alot.

There is no pot of gold for us meeting and becoming friends, because getting to know who you are is already a value within itself
Two people in one good friendship we both are gems ourselves.

And I didnt use a compass to seek you North, South, East, or West
It just naturally happened which is always the Best.

There are no directions and there is no need to search for a box with the lock,
Because the most important jewel is everything i ever want to share always goes un-blocked

Our Solar System

You are the brightest star in my light galaxy
Your sparkling flares causes my universe to burst
You are the coolness of the moon, to you I seek refuge from the scouring hot sun
You are the blazing heat of the sun, to you I seek refuge from the bitter cold of the moon


When our lips touch, it sends a storm throughout the Earth
And when our bodies crash, it sends a calm throughout the sky
When our thoughts are the same, it makes the rain scatter about
And when our perceptions are different, it makes the sun stand its ground in great amount


Come on the voyage and enter the spaceship of an unknown land
Leave off the cruise and depart into the shuttle to an un-imaginable universe lead by my hand
This is our journey, which no one has the right to interrupt, to fulfill this, it is our task
This is not our destination, which everyone has the right to corrupt, to empty this, is what have been asked


So saddle up and get ready for a ride on a supernova
But settle down from an unprepared wide side, cuz we takin ova!!