He Should Had Came With a Warning

                                                                         GUN

HE SHOT ME

HE SHOT ME IN THE HEART

BUT HE HAS ONLY BEEN WOUNDING ME

SHOT AFTER SHOT AFTER SHOT

BUT IT WAS ALL OVER

HE JUST KEPT SHOOTING ME

WHY? WHAT DID I DO?

WHY? WHAT DID I SAY?

HE HAS NO REASONS

HE HAS NO ANSWERS

HE JUST PICKED UP THE GUN, PUT IT IN HIS HAND, GRIPPED HIS FINGER ON THE HANDLE, AND HE SQUEEZED THE TRIGGER

I FELT EVERY EFFECT, BUT I KEPT WALKING TOWARDS HIM

MY BODY HELD AND KEPT EVERY FRAGMENT, BUT I CONTINUED TO GO FORWARD TO HIM

HE NEVER DROPPED THE GUN, HE NEVER RAN AWAY

HE JUST STOOD THERE NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO NEXT OR SAY

HE DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT

HE WAS STUCK IN HIS FIRING OF WOUNDING ME; HE COULDN’T STOP, HE DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT

HE WANTED IT ALL TO END, BUT ONCE HE KNEW HE WAS DONE, HE KNEW I WOULD HAD BEEN LEFT INJURED AND WOUNDED

TO SHOOT ME KNOWING THAT I ALWAYS GAVE ALL THAT I COULD, PUTTING AND GOING ALL IN, HE COULD NEVER FACE THE WOUNDS THAT HE HAS AFFLICTED UNTO ME

IT TOOK ME BLEEDING AND PLEADING OUT OF MY PORES TO ASK WHY HE HAS DONE THIS TO ME

IT TOOK ME CRYING AND DYING OUT OF MY EYES AND HEART TO DIVULGE THE BULLETS HE HAS DISCHARGED INTO ME

THE MOST FUCKED UP THING ABOUT IT IS, IS THAT I KNOW HE KNOWS HE HURTED ME, BUT HE NEVER SAID “IM SORRY”

EVEN THOUGH HE HAS SAID FOR ME NOT TO BLAME MYSELF, THAT EVERYTHING WAS HIS FAULT, BUT BEING THANKFUL FOR ME BEING A WONDERFUL FRIEND

DOES THAT SHOW REMORSE? DOES THAT SHOW ANY EMPATHY? PERHAPS…BUT I DO APPRECIATE THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF HIS WORNG DOING

FOR MOST PEOPLE, AN APOLOGY WOULDN’T BE SUFFICIENT ENOUGH. BUT FOR ME, IT WOULD BE EVERYTHING. IT WOULD BE CLOSER TO THE CLOSURE THAT I NEED

I WOULDN’T WISH WHAT HE HAS DONE TO ME ON MY BEST WORST ENEMIES

FUNNY THING ABOUT THE WAY HE KILLED ME, EVEN THOUGH IF I WANTED HIM TO FEEL WHAT IM FEELING, EVEN IF I WOULD WANT HIM TO ENDURE THE PAIN I HAVE ENDURED FROM HIM, JUST TO SEE WHAT ITS LIKE, I DON’T WANT THAT.

I DON’T EVEN WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO HIM. I DON’T WANT KARMA TO PAY HIM A VISIT

BUT THAT IS SOMETHING I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER

I STILL WISH AND HOPE THE BEST FOR HIM.

IM GOING TO MISS AN INPORTANT DAY THAT I WANT TO SEE

IM GOING TO MISS HIM REACHING HIS GOALS

IM JUST GOING TO MISS EVERYTHING

BUT HE NEVER WANTED ME TO HAVE A PART IN HIS LIFE, THAT’S WHY HE HAD HIS GUN; THAT’S WHY HE USED IT ON ME.

AND AFTER HE “BLASTED” ME FOR SO LONG, HE WAS THE ONE TO SAY BYE?! (BUT I GUESS IN A WAY IT WAS BETTER FOR HIM TO SAY IT CUZ I NEVER WOULD HAVE)

I JUST HOPE HE REMEMBERS AND NEVER FORGET…..

…but then again, he never cared anyway

IM DEAD?….TO HIM