What Are My Chances

I would rather have him than any other guy,
these feelings I have had I can no longer deny.
But could I take this risk to have him,
sadly I think my chances are slim.
Is he willing to at least give it a try,
my heart would hate to have to say goodbye.
Yes my body calls for him but I'm a locked up jewel,
to withhold it from him might seem cruel.
It's not that I'm purposely not giving it to him,
it's not that I'm intentionally keeping it away from him.
I don't expect him to understand,
but being celibate is what I've planned.
I would love to have him like I had before,
but unfortunately that's a closed door.
How interested is he in me,
is the sex the main thing for him to have me.
What are my chances when it comes to a situation like this,
would he have a relationship with me or will I be dismissed.
I have to ask myself if I'm really being fair to him,
I would hate it if he thought I'm being grim.
I want to get to a place with him where I can eventually say 'i love you',
that's how strong I want this but my chances might not go through.
Does he know that he has lit a spark in me,
I'm on fire for him and I have been since the beginning
So what are my chances and put my heart to rest,
I just have to let all this out, it's not good to suppress.