Cake

The woman that's on the outside, she was promised what would fulfill her heart
As she looks into their lives, she feels exploited and victimized
At times, she gets to experience a little bit of that happiness, but then is quickly disregarded
What's not enough for her, for once each time, she understands the rush to leave, but then, where does that leave her
She's left in near tears. She's left with her heart feeling used. She's left feeling secondhanded
The woman wonders how would it be if things were different... if there were only one of them
Would she then become the one on the inside, or would she continue to be a grocery store
A shopping center is more likely what she'll remain
She doesn't want to shut-down shop, and that's at the expense of her own happiness in heart
Not wanting to disappoint the customer, she'll remain running and availably open
With looking forward to seeing some new merchandise come in, she's hopeful that will spark some refreshness
She knows that service is excellent now, but perhaps how she feels about things now, the new additions she hopes will change how she feels about the current arrangements
But she must not forget her location... She's rented!
Perhaps maybe on borrowed land for the rest of her life?..
Its a mystery what will happen when her own business partner arrives.. Will she continue to please the customer? (she'll say yes, but she doesn't want to swindle)
Let her stop thinking about the "what ifs", and get back to the "what is"
And what is, is the fact that, again, she's in a situation where she is only needed and wanted for one thing. Hey, the customer just wants some cake!
She has no ring. She has no commitment. She has no one that loves her. She has nothing!!
Oh, but what she will always have is delicious cake!
And she's put-upon because of it
The customer is good, in every way, inside and out, during purchasing or not... All around good...Great she may add
But she still cannot help but to think,... to feel, "thank you, I got what I wanted. Now Bye!"
That destroys her more than you will ever know!
With two of them, she understands it will be hard to keep a friendship. But all she wants to know for now, is that are there any attempts or efforts to do what's necessary to have a friendship??...
So, the woman on the outside, she continues to look at those who are on the other end
She continues to see the situation that, at times, boils under her skin
Why? Because is it really fair to have cake and eat it too?
While paying the price, at the expense of what she wants, she sees the one she services give what all her heart has ever longed for, to someone else!
That's why she's just a grocery store and not gourmet, and that is where she will always be, and the standard of who she will always remain to be...The lesser
Where is the love for her? Where is the need for her besides to pick up and then leave? Where is the want for her besides the brief free shopping spree?
When will she get the one instead of the customer?
Until then, she continues to look in at the inside, watching the customer live with giving to someone else what she, herself has yearned for for most of her life
She will continue to 'supply' what's asked and in demand while hurting on her own inside
Because it's not fair for her to feel that way,...to hurt.
But she would rather give service with a hurting heart and with a sense of being 'requested for', than to have the customer be without what that person craves and is excited to get every time
And she would say to the customer, don't worry about the being of her or feel bad because of her pain, because it is all her fault, and nothing to do with the customer
She would say continue to shop because the cake will always be there...