He Won't Let You Down

There has been multiple times in my life when I said out loud, "God, where are you!?" During those times, he never felt near to me. When I was going through Depression, deep into..sitting in my room with the door locked, lights off, blinds closed, in the dark, crying my eyes out, experiencing body pain that accompanied my emotional pain... I would plead to God. "Lord help me! Help ME! Get me out of this!" I was depressed for years, and then one day it just went away. I can say He was there for me then because I didn't die when I tried to kill myself, on more than one occasion. He stopped me from death.

Most recently, I'm not sure words could even explain. Being so far away from him (from my point of view), I was falling into a pit. Every thing in my life was just bad. I was falling from God, thus falling from his grace, protection, and favor, but I never fell out of His love for me. Little did I know, during this time of falling down, He was right there. My life had gotten so rotten that I said to myself, "God doesn't like me. Yes, he cares for me and about me, I know he loves me, but he must be mad at me the reason why I'm going through Hell on Earth right now." I convinced myself that I would just walk away from God because I was a huge disappointment. Not only that, but I was going to make the choice to leave God because, I didn't necessarily feel abandoned by God, but I felt, "why isn't he here? Why isn't he helping me?" I was reminded of all those times I would plead, beg, cry my eyes out, to God to help me, and I never heard a word. It didn't matter if I was reading the Bible every day., Praying every day, confessing every day, talking to him every day,..etc I just never heard a word from him. I was reminded that I would try, try, try, and try, and still nothing would happen. So many times I gave up trying because God wasn't there...But he really was.

At the point I decided that I will give up, there He is showing himself to me. Here on my blog I came across someone I was following and she had written about encouragement and had scriptures posted. I burst into tears. And just when I decided that I would no longer practice the Faith of Christianity, God sent a message to my sister to tell me, "You have the victory, trust and rely on me.. Come to me NOW!" Again, I burst into tears. God has been along with me right by my side, even when I didn't feel him near. Some ask, 'well, why would God do that to you?' God only allows hardships in our lives, for one: sometimes a lesson, or two: to bring us back to him. When we're doing the wrong thing, things not of Him, then yes, we are going to suffer some hardships because we are out of his will. He allows the hardships to get so bad, because he knows there is only ONE place and only ONE person that can help you, and that one thing is GOD. He allows that to happen because he's trying to get you to turn back to him, where you belong.

And even sometimes when you are going through bad things, God still blesses you. I recall having money in my back account that I have no clue where it came from. I checked, and no deposits were made, no refunds, no checks or payments owe to me. I went to bed one night with a certain figure in my back account, and woke up the next morning with an increase in that figure amount. The favor I have in situations, for example, yes I call it favor when Police let me go without issuing a ticket. Favor from God is such a blessing. Having things go your way, go so smoothly...Favor is awesome to have and it's all from God. I remember being in school, at the start of my last semester, taking three Psychology classes, I said I'm getting an 'A' in all three classes. I prayed about it and did my part. One professor found every single little thing wrong to not give me extra points, or a higher grade on an assignment, or anything she could do to put me down. But I kept my Faith with God and kept my will to pass..At the end, I got all As, even from that one professor who did not want to give me one. That was my goal and I reached it. He'll even use other people to bless you. He'll keep you safe. I can recall numerous times where I should have been in a accident, injured, or worse but God's protection surrounded me. Whether you are or aren't doing what you're supposed to be doing, God is always right there with you! God will help you with anything you ask, pray believe that you receive it, have faith, never give up, and you'll get it.

God has a purpose for me and he wants me to see what he has planned for my life. I want that too. I know God loves me, and I will never doubt him again. He knew the things I wanted, I was looking for those things from people. My life was miserable because of it. God is the only one who can truly give you your hearts' desires. He knew what I was looking for from those people, I could never find or receive from them. He has better plans for me.

He is with you every moment of every day. He won't leave you nor forsake you. He loves you and he cares about you. He has good thoughts about you and want to do great things for you in your life. When things are going rough, and getting tough, NEVER give up on God. For HE will NEVER give up on you!

Romans 5:8But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us

Romans 8:37-39   But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Psalm 9:10
 Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.

John 14:1
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God

1 Corinthians 13:6-7
6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.